Still Chasing

Five years ago this month I had a big first.

I packed myself and my running shoes in the car, drove to Fargo, North Dakota, and encountered snow flurries on the way. In the middle of October.

I was worried I hadn’t even brought a hat, but my best friend didn’t let me freeze the next morning. She borrowed me a black Carhartt hat, she got me to the start, and she was at the finish cheering when I completed my first half marathon.



She ran the 5K while I ran the half, but I still maintain she’s faster than me any day. Her free time is also divided between riding horse and driving motorcycle, so I couldn’t fault her for not training for the half. :-)

I had a lot of thoughts during that cold 13.1 miles, but I don’t think I ever doubted I would finish. I knew I wouldn’t be very fast and the end might not be pretty, but I would get there.

Fast is a strange concept when you’re a middle-of-the-pack girl like me. I know I wasn’t fast when I first started running longer distances. Now that I’ve taken almost 30 minutes (okay, 27 minutes) off my first half marathon time I still don’t think I’m fast. Faster maybe, but I guess fast is an illusive concept that will keep me training and chasing the next goal. I suppose unless you’re an aspiring Olympian we’re all just somewhere in the middle striving to feel healthy, alive, and just a little bit better than we were the day before.

Maybe I have this desire because I was never good at sports as a kid. I’ve always had knobby knees, pointy elbows, and been more thin than thick. I wasn’t built to muscle my way through high contact team sports, and I also lacked the coordination necessary for most of them. In reality, I think I also lacked the confidence. I should have been fast because of my skinny limbs, but I wasn’t that either.

My best friend is also the one who convinced me to try track in seventh grade. That was the push I needed to finally join a team. It wasn’t exactly a success story because I didn’t train or focus well enough to be very competitive, but I did see improvement. I ran hurdles because not too many girls wanted to, and one singular year I qualified for the section meet. I was ecstatic.


I only stuck with track through tenth grade, but I don’t regret the other things (4-H, music, speech, FFA, drama, work, academics, and family & friends) I filled my time with. They shaped me into me and helped develop the skills I needed for college and beyond.

I would never have been a great runner, but for some reason running was waiting for me five years ago. It gave me a renewed chance. I also think it’s a blessing God helped me rediscover once the happy chaos of college was over. After four busy years, I was a newlywed living in a small town with few friends or connections beyond my husband and the farm. I love those things, but that kind of change is still tough.

I had the maturity at this point to train harder, and I found a community of support through other runners that encouraged me to go farther. My readers and this blog are part of that community too!

A year and a half after this October race I drove back to Fargo for my first marathon. Apparently I like flat when I’m tackling a new distance. My friend thought this was certainly more crazy, but she still helped me navigate to the start and was cheering at the finish.

I don’t know what the next five years will bring, but I suspect I will still be chasing.

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“I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.”

Fall is awesome. I’m pretty sure I’ve always thought so. As a school kid and even as a teen I liked the rhythm of going back to school, and as a farm kid I knew the importance and beauty of the harvest season.

I now find myself excited to make thick soups and applesauce in my crockpot, and I love the crunch of crisp leaves and the speed in my legs during a cool fall morning run.

Yes, fall days on a farm can be really busy. Sometimes lonely too. I often find myself solo at the supper table after dark once I’ve brought JR a meal to eat in the field. But it’s only for a little while, and dry weather to bring in quality silage for the cows is a blessing to give thanks for.

Yesterday, after over three weeks of start and stop, we finished harvesting our corn silage. There is still lots to do to prepare those fields for winter (tillage, hauling manure, etc), but it can be done at a more normal pace than harvest.

We covered silage with tires and plastic for the last time this season, and I can’t say I’ll miss it.


During much of the fall we are busier than normal, so sometimes when I stop to look at my yard I cringe a little. Fall yard cleanup often waits until a few days before the snow flies, and sometimes it doesn’t happen then, either.

But maybe I’m okay with that. My house and yard will never be pristine – in any season. I have a feeling even if I didn’t farm I would get behind on these tasks. (Okay, I know I would!) But I still soak in the sight of leaves waiting to be raked, grass that’s a little too long, and cattle enjoying the last pasture of the season.

This summer I found myself making a little monthly feature of the current flowers in my yard. October appears different with pumpkins and orange leaves, but I still have a few hardy flowers blooming. Here’s a look around the past week.






From one of my favorite reads of all time…

“I’m so glad I live in a world where there are Octobers.” – Anne of Green Gables


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Undercover: What’s What?

Normally I feel pretty optimistic about agriculture and raising food. It’s a timeless vocation, and everybody needs to eat. What makes both my brain and my heart hurt are those who want to determine through fear what we should and should not eat.

Animal rights extremists are part of the picture farmers can no longer ignore. While I fully believe in caring for and treating animals well, I also believe in eating meat, milk, eggs, and other animal products. This unfortunately puts me at odds with many animal rights groups who, if you look closely, really aim to end all animal agriculture.

Don’t get me wrong — if someone wants to eat a purely plant-based diet they should absolutely be allowed that choice. I should be sensitive to that, and there’s no need for me to judge. In many cases we can get along and even learn from each other.

But everyone needs to be allowed to make their own food choices on the spectrum. When organized groups start trying to scare and manipulate people into avoiding animal protein, then I take issue.

Things get further confusing when you realize groups like the Humane Society of the United States (HSUS), give comparatively little to pet shelters and spend lots on lobbyists trying to influence policy against livestock farming.

As a side note, if you care about homeless pets, PLEASE give directly to your local shelter or rescue. They will put those dollars to work in your community, and you’ll avoid fattening the budget of misleading groups like HSUS. I’m an animal and pet lover as well as a farmer, and I’ve come to realize it’s so important to research the pet and animal charities you give to.

When groups do release videos of animal cruelty, we as farmers are left saying again and again that we don’t condone animal mistreatment. These cruel images are not the norm. A vast majority of farmers have a lot of integrity for what they do, and they care about their animals.

And I really believe that’s true. So many farms of all sizes have been in families for generations. Pride, responsibility, and a strong work ethic permeate the farming culture. Families raise their kids on the land, they drink the water, and they teach their children to help with animal feeding and care.

My nephew and niece

Still, people are left wondering where these videos keep coming from. If they’re not the norm, why don’t they go away?

To this, I think the answer is two-fold. First, it can be very profitable to be an animal rights group that scares people. Groups like PETA and HSUS take in millions every year and spend large amounts on fundraising and salary to continue the cycle. Sensational videos tug at people’s emotions and get them to open their wallets. Beyond that, I’m sure some of the people within these organizations really believe the hype. They may think farms are truly bad places, they completely misunderstand them, or they want to stop everyone from eating animal protein. They’re working for a cause, and they’ll do whatever it takes to advance that cause.

This brings me again to the real question . Where do they keep getting these videos?

I’ve been thinking about that lately, and a simple example occurred to me. So just follow me for a minute…

If you take a picture of me with strep throat or the flu, I’m going to look a lot worse than I would on an average day when I’m doing normal things. I’ll probably have a blotchy face, red nose, and appear to be unhealthy.

Or, if you took a video of me the day after a 20 mile run, I’d probably look sore and stiff on my legs. That’s not representative of how I normally walk and move, but that would be what you see.

I think this parallels what extreme animal rights activists are doing as they dig and dig to find disturbing images to release. They get their people to pose as normal workers for varying periods of time and discreetly film (and sometimes create) situations that looks bad. They will quit or disappear once they finally get their footage – without ever reporting any problem. Some of this disturbing video may indeed be a frustrated worker making a bad decision or deliberately causing harm. And they need to be held properly accountable for that. Much more is likely an unfortunate situation where an animal is sick or hurt. It stinks, but these things happen to people and they happen to animals too. It’s not fun, but on our farm we do our best with the resources we have to treat any animal that needs. Sometimes farmers have to put an animal down. That’s not fun either. Awhile back I called it the worst job on a farm.

Some things on a livestock farm are dirty and bloody, and there’s just no way around it. But more often things on a farm are about country living, contended animals eating and resting, new babies being born, and regular people going about day to day chores.

You guys are smart and I know you fundamentally get that. Still, it’s hard for everyone (myself included) to remember it when you’re seeing a disturbing undercover video or images.

I suppose that’s why I blog about topics like this — so we can remember. If I don’t talk about it, if other farmers don’t talk about it, nobody will.

I wish you all a great autumn week as we head into October. If you’ve got questions or comments on this topic I’m all ears!



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Strong, Feminine, and Awesome: Esprit de She with Team Chocolate Milk

Several years ago I applied and got a spot on Team Chocolate Milk. The team is a combination of pro athletes, experts, and lots of regular people like me who balance training with full-time jobs and commitments. Maybe “regular” is the wrong word because my team members are extraordinary! Some are also runners, but others are cyclists, triathletes, and even IRONMAN finishers.

We all drink our chocolate milk, and we believe in the benefits of recovering with chocolate milk after a hard workout. Benefits including its optimum protein to carb ratio, calcium, vitamins, and hydrating qualities. Plus it’s tasty. :-)

When I first became part of the team they had white “Team Refuel” gear, and I wore it to multiple races. I enjoyed representing something bigger than myself, and as a dairy farmer I loved that the something was milk! The main sponsored events I could get entry to were Rock ‘n’ Roll Marathon series races and IRONMAN races, but none were anywhere close to me (And I’ve never even done a sprint triathlon…) Maybe someday I could travel for a race, but I was also happy to run local races and represent where I could.


Since then I’ve gotten to stay on the team as an alumni member, but along the way they’ve updated the name to Team Chocolate Milk, changed the color to orange, and created new gear and apparel.

Around the time I was wondering if my gear was too outdated to wear, I got connected with Stephanie at Midwest Dairy and her efforts to grow Team Dairy. I got new Team Dairy pink, wore it for several races, and fell into a comfortable pattern of racing in pink. I’ve never (and still don’t) view my teams as competing — rather they both give me a chance to be part of a supportive community and to talk about dairy foods and my dairy farming background at races. Athletes are a great audience for food and health conversation, and whether I’m in pink or orange I’ve made some good connections.

This summer I learned Team Chocolate Milk is a major sponsor of Esprit de She , a series of running, biking, triathlon, and duathlon events for women. Several of these races are held in the Twin Cities. I couldn’t make the first ones, but I signed up for the Maple Grove 10K in September. I contacted the team about getting some orange to race in, and they quickly obliged with a new top! I was ready to rock at my first sponsored event.

This past week we were chopping silage through Wednesday, and then Wednesday night we stopped to cover what we had because the remaining fields were too wet. This meant on Thursday I could definitely make the race.

It was a beautiful and sunny evening, the hour drive went smooth, and I found a parking spot faster than I expected. All was well except my raw throat, stuffy nose, and sore body. I had really looked forward to this race, and I would just do the best I could. Women were everywhere, but I eventually got my number, tasted a few cold delicacies, and found my way to the start.




The pace signs at the front were for 8:00/miles (about what I hoped to run), so I placed myself near the back of the front group as the national anthem got underway. After it ended I stuck a watermelon jolly rancher in my mouth. I’d been sucking on jolly ranchers bought from the gas station all afternoon to help soothe my throat. I’d forgotten cough drops, and the taste would have driven me crazy after one or two anyhow. I think all the sugary candy eventually made my stomach churn, but I was fine for the moment.

I settled into a fast-ish pace as we started and then pulled down my sunglasses as we headed west. I wanted to average as close to 8-minute miles as I could, so I decided to start a bit faster to get clear of the crowd and then see if I could hang on. Ideally I would break 50:00, but feeling like I did that would be a stretch.

The first 5K for me was fast but controlled, and people were cheering as the finish got closer. More runners were doing the 5K, and they split left for the finish while us 10K ladies headed right to take another loop. They had a sign pointing 5K left, 10K right and a person announcing the same directions.

The second lap felt harder, of course, but I just kept trying to push. Around mile 4 I caught the end of the 5K walkers. This meant I was dodging and weaving around walkers and other runners for the remainder of the race. It wasn’t ideal, but I also felt a lot of respect and admiration for the slower ladies on the course. Some were just doing a moderate walk, but others were slowly running or doing a run-walk pattern. You could tell they were putting just as much effort in as anyone, even if they didn’t look like your typical runner. Old, young, heavy, thin — it simply didn’t matter. We were all empowered by the goal and the atmosphere.

Because I wasn’t feeling great I’d brought my iPod to pep me up if I needed. I had stuck in my earbuds about halfway, and I intermittently took them in or out based on spectator support and what song was playing.

As I rounded the last stretch toward the finish I was already over 50:00, but I could still maybe break 51:00. I had been following another 10K runner through a clump of walkers, and I saw her go right instead of left to the finish. A woman was still calling out “10K right, 5K left,” so I figured they must want the 10K runners to finish on the other side.

I’d removed my earbuds for the end and stuffed them in my pocket, but somehow they fell down and started tumbling to the ground. I grabbed for the thin wires and missed. They tangled around my ankle as I ran, and I slowed down to grab them back up. I didn’t trip, and I hoped nobody was laughing too much on the sidelines. Ahh!

I saw the finish barricaded to my left, and I realized I definitely went the wrong way after all. I should have went to the main finish, and I saw the 10K girl who had been ahead of me crawling through a small opening in the barriers to get over. I slipped through too, but it took me a few more seconds to step over the timing mats because my shirt snagged on the fencing.

The music was loud and volunteers were everywhere handing out chocolate milk and water so nobody commented (or maybe even noticed) our error. I got my photo with milk snapped by the ladies handing it out, and then I was back in a sea of women enjoying food, music, wine, and celebration.


Officially I ran 51:21, and at first I was a touch disappointed in my time. I knew I gave a solid effort though, and considering my finish line fiascos I was fortunate to have an official time! I’ll always have another shot at a PR, and I was grateful to be part of this event.

I made my way to the Team Chocolate Milk booth and eventually found Chrisann, one of the team captains. She’s a mom, triathlete, and Ironman finisher who also goes to several sponsored races to help manage the team presence and booth. It was so fun to meet her and hear about her background and journey. We also talked with one of the race managers and got a neat inside perspective on the evening and other races in the series. They do a great job welcoming first-timers, and I became a little bit convinced I’d like to try the duathlon they put on in Minnesota next spring. If I can just make more time for riding my bike…



If you’ve got an Esprit de She race near you, I’d recommend checking it out. I know several are still happening around the country this fall.

I’m also newly inspired to take advantage of more team races if I can, but no matter where I’m racing or in what color I’ll continue to speak up for milk. Thanks for all your comments and congrats online after this race. It’s always fun to put up pictures in real time and get instant feedback. The fall weather is really getting beautiful, so I hope to race a few more times before the snow flies. I’ll keep you updated!

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Happy Birthday and Stuff

Four years later, and here I am.

Four years ago I created this little nook for myself on the Internet, and I’m still writing. I don’t know how far my blog will reach or how long it will last, but I can’t imagine giving it up anytime soon.

Three years ago I introduced our blog calf, and today Etta is having a birthday as a newly three-year-old cow.


Change happens so quickly, doesn’t it?

And yet many things are the same. I’m still caring for calves and cows, still writing about farming, and still chronicling my running and racing journey. My family has grown with nieces and nephews since I started writing, but it remains as close and important to me as ever. My friends may be geographically further from me with new jobs or growing families, but when I talk to a close friend we can usually pick up right where we left off.

Here on the blog, I’m glad to still have some of my original readers following and commenting, and I’m always pleased to see new readers joining in too.

I don’t have any big fireworks or giveaway planned, but I do want to say thank you for stopping by and reading! I value your comments, perspective, and suggestions.

In the near future you can watch for a race report (I was thrilled to run the 10K on Thursday with Team Chocolate Milk at Esprit de She – Maple Grove) and a collection of my thoughts on a big issue impacting animal agriculture.



If there’s anything else you’d like to hear about just ask! Once again, thanks for reading.

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